The reason why..

The conversation took place 3 days ago, masa aku tengah tolong Mak masak for lunch..Syafiz (my brother) was also there;

SYAFIZ: Mak next year Syafiz nak bertunang la..

ME and MAK:  hahahahahaahaha

MAK: "Mak tengok dalam korang 4 orang anak mak, Wani je yang tak pernah ada bunyi langsung pasal nak kawin ke, ada someone special ke.. dia buat hal dia je..bukan kisah pasal orang.. sebab tu kot tak ada lelaki nak! "

ME: "Makkkkkkk, bukan macam tula.. Wani just nak make sure my future someone special tu nanti bole lepak dengan MakAbah macam Zerh (Atikah's someone special).. baru la Mak ngan Abah boleh duduk ngan Wani..plus, kita dua kan selalu 'bergaduh', nanti kalau Mak x duduk dengan Wani mak mesti bosan punya sebab x ada kawan 'bergaduh'..hahaha"



I making faces (paling selalu), I talk back, I naughty, I rebel, I ain't response sometimes, I didn't listen to MakAbah..


but,
sampai sekarang Abah yang isi minyak untuk aku sebab I dont know how to, Abah yang tarik kaki aku kalau aku x boleh nak bangun pagi, Abah yang jahit baju aku bila baju aku terkoyak ke apa, Abah yang masak best roti telur best  in the world utk aku for breakfast, pergi belikan roti bila aku lapar malam malam..

Mak yang suap aku makan,Mak yang sikat rambut aku kadang2, Mak ajar aku masak and Mak yang bagi Dutchess makan on behalf of me when i'm not around and macam macam lagi la..


So what can u expect?
I will never ever tinggal/lupakan MakAbah yang dah buat almost everyhing for me for the past 20 years just untuk one guy yang unsure bole buat semua tu ke tak.

LIKE SERIOUSLY EVER!

Sigh

It just next week and I don't feel like joining the family vacation..

I just wanna be here, home, and spend my time sleeping (beside reading, find new recipe, listen to music n play with Dutchess)..

I'm not in mood to do anything, still..

I'm struggling to get some sleep at night, still..

And I easily get tired lately, especially lepas badly injured masa hiking last 2 weeks..

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Anddddddddddd,

 BITCH PLEASE!!

I'm STRAIGHT, 

so u may leave me alone..

I meant it,

like seriously serious..

thanks.

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 Dear Future Someone Special/ Husband,

eventhou I don't know who you are, I'm ready now.. u may enter my life and I'll gladly welcome your presence..

Just accept me the way I am and I'll try my very very best to accept and understand you in return..

I may not be the best but I really will try my best to make this relationship last (if I have any at this moment)

"I don't have any type, if I like you, than I like you"

regardless you older, fatter, skinner, tanner, fairer,taller,shorter, richer, poorer..
Let's just do this together and go with the flow to make this relationship last alright..

TERRIBLE. WEEK. EVER.

I don't know what is wrong with me this week..
everything seem to be so hard and annoying..
I just not in mood to do anything instead of  and listening to music, online, reading..
I don't give a damm..
I don't response..
I JUST KEPT MYSELF SILENCE..

It is a terrible week..
siku berjahit, it hard for me to do things ..nak kena control and I hate it sooo much..
cramps leg for the past 3 night makes me tired and sleepy to do house chores in the morning..
Thus, rumah berhabuk and it stress me out..


And the week terribly terrible  when I HAVE TO CANCEL MY BACK PACK TRAVEL..
selain dari dah badly injured masa hiking last week, My parents suddenly change the plan to a family vacation..
I'm oke with the plan, it just that I wanna go to KL and Melaka sooooooo badly ):

I'm not gonna write any longer, I just not in mood!!

I just need my Azza and Wan now.

Just them.

Only Them!!

Back Pack Travel

Assalamualikum n Good Day everyone :D


okay, lets make it quick this time..

4th December '12
First day Back Pack Travel. Hiking. Too bad I'm feel down.Badly injured. Nose,Knee, Elbow. 7 stitches. But It was FUNNNN!!. :D

Berbaloi.

After more than a month #1

Okay, since it has been more than a month since my last post, so aku fikir nak tulis part of it here, apa yang jadi..
I left Kedah, Results, Last Debate Tournament, Boyfriends, Gaza, DPA5G and so on ------> ayat Azza, haha..

Well, as for start lets talk about Gaza.. Aku tulis pasal Gaza bukan sebab benda tu tgh trending ke apa, but aku nak tulis sebab the times has come for me.. I mean to write/ share something pasal Gaza..

Well, aku ni jahil.. aku jahil and sometimes x kisah pun apa yang jadi kat Gaza.. Aku still la berseronok dengan hidup aku sendiri.. Keluar lepak Starbucks and Chatime, tengok tv (english drama/show) which is my favourite, teruskan hidup like nothing happen..macam biasa la..

Than, aku ada la tengok berita pasla Gaza semua ni, I care a little bit tapi aku still macam.. "hmmm, oke..dorang memang dah kena "buli" dengan Israel dari dulu lagi kan? so I't does'nt not make any change this time..sama je, the rakyat still suffer..Israel still kejam and Obama still anjing kepada Israel..


Aku memang ignorance sampai la benda tu jadi trending topic dekat Facebook and Twitter.. than I start to show a little care.. aku start baca and tengok video pasal penderitaan rakyat Gaza...satu pagi tu, bila aku online, Fadhly Azman post this one video pasal satu budak kecik ni yang marah tentera Israel sebab buat something dekat bestfriend dia..
Subahanallah Ya Allah, sungguh besar rahmatmu.. the moment aku tengok video tu, aku terus nangis than aku rasa bersalah sangat sangat..
and aku rasa bertambah bersalah bila next day aku tengok lagi satu video ni, pasal current condition of Gaza bila kena serang dengan Israel..

Video tu 19.56 saat..video tu tunjuk penderitaan yang rakyat Palestin kena tanggung.. Kanak2 yang hilang Parents, remaja yang mati Syahid, Wanita, basically Ibu, without their husband beside yang cedera sebab protect her kids, doctor yang bertungkus lumus selamatkan nyawa rakyat Palestin and ada juga doctor yang sedih and macam dah nak give up sebab x dapat selamatkan nyawa rakyat Palestin and sooooo lots more..aku x sanggup nak cerita sebab each time aku teringat video tu mesti menangis punya..

Lepas dari aku tegok vidoe tu, I was like..

"Ya Allah Wawa, apa kau buat ni? why la you do this to yourself? Kenapa la kau terlalu ingnorance selama ni? kenapa la kau x sedar yang disaat kau tengah berseronok dengan hidup kau ada sedara seagama kau yang lain tengah susah, tengah nazak, tengah takut kena bom, tengah terumbang-ambing sebab hilang mak ayah, tengah lapar, and yang paling penting TENGAH MENDERITA!!
Tapi kau Wawa..........

Kau still adore Justin Bieber yang memang terang terangan sokong Yahudi,
Kau beli their product,
memang kau benci Mc'D ngan KFC tapi kau pergi Starbucks bagai,
and still, you can't even stop listen to their song and watch their drama..
Good job Wawa, good job!! 

*sigh
Aku seriously menyesal gila.. I do have a choice untuk tidak buat semua benda dekat atas since benda tu closely related dengan penderitaan rakyat Gaza, tapi aku ni jahil.. aku buat jugak..
Rakyat Gaza x pernah ada pilihan sama ada nak or x nak kena serang dengan Israel.. apa la aku dah buat selama ni kan??

Atikah dah banyak kali la jugak cakap kat aku yang hollywood semua tu x bagus sebab dorang tu salah satu daripada ejen Yahudi, tapi aku memang x kisah sebab aku suka dengan cara dorang yang open minded, urban and modern.. Ni semua sebab aku dah tersasar..haihhhh


Nak mengaku aku buat semua benda ni memang la malu, macam bukak pekung kat dada sendiri sebab aku tujukkan yang betapa jahilnya aku selama ni..
tapi aku x kisah sebab at least aku sedar and aku harap orang Islam lain kat luar sana x jadi macam aku.. it's about time untuk kita tolong umat seagama sendiri...

Dear Palestenian,
I am seriously sorry for what I have done,
I ain't got money to donate and I ain't got that courage and strenght to fight over Israel..
I can only have Doa to give..
I will always pray to Allah that He'll protect you and even if u died, u'll died in Syahid..
Insya Allah...

After more than a month

I,

Wawa Azman, come back here, to the basic..
to write,

everything..